November 2011
October 2011
The Media
makes us think we need to be in love or just in a relationship in general, because all we watch, listen to, read, etc is people “in love”. Supposedly seeing it everywhere can make you think you’re missing out on something, which calls for desperation. Relax, most of it is fiction, you’ll get your reality someday.
My Halloween
- Undiagnosed flu symptoms
- 3 Papers, thankfully (to Him) I got an extension on one
- Feeling like an idiot
- Optimistic, because what a creepy holiday to start over on, I can only go up.
I just give up. I’m sorry if I what I said didn’t come out right, but it doesn’t matter anyway. If I’m afraid to text you, because I feel you’re going to be short, and you just don’t text me for whatever reason, then we just need to say “fuck it”. So, fuck it, it was a recipe for disaster anyway.
“That’s what people don’t realize. Forgiveness is not about exonerating them. Forgiveness is about empowering you. It’s more about you than it is about them. Cut the cord that ties you to the past or you’re going to lose your future.”
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T.D. JAKES
Wow, soooo relevant to today. I forgive you, but snip snip [:
(via kitastr0phe)
I want out of this lifestyle
there must be more
“One of the best pieces of advice I ever got, back when I was 23 and newly out of school, is this: look around and figure out who you want to be on your team. Figure out the people around you that you want to work with for the rest of your life. Figure out the people who are smart & awesome, who share your values, who get things done — and maybe most important, who you like to be with and who you want to help win. And treat them right, always. Look for ways to help, to work together, to learn. Because in 20 years you’ll all be in amazing places doing amazing things.”
—John Lilly (via kentster)
Took a big risk yesterday. I feel stupid due to how it looks like its playing out, but I had to get these things off my chest. I grew tired of waking up and going to bed with same person on my mind, so I did something about it; I somewhat told them how I felt. I didn’t mention that I think about them that much, Lord, I might’ve in turn said something vile, but whatever I WAS NERVOUS. But anyway, whenever I feel down about situations like these, I always enjoy the reassurance of a quote from quotegarden.com. This is a quote that made me feel so much better about taking a big leap…
“Do not be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. What if they are a little course, and you may get your coat soiled or torn? What if you do fail, and get fairly rolled in the dirt once or twice. Up again, you shall never be so afraid of a tumble.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
At the end of the day, I cannot let fear dictate what I do, and how I act. Even if I don’t get the desired outcome I can move on peacefully and say I tried to get the boy who’s constantly filling up my head :)
